have you ever had one of "those days?" You know, where you just feel like poo. Nothing seems to go right, and just a generally crappy day. Well, it's been one of those weeks. My jaw/tooth hurts (pretty sure I need another root canal), neck hurts, Craig isn't here for the holiday, house is a mess, everyone is on edge with the Christmas season now upon us, etc etc. I just wish I could crawl up into a hole for the whole season. Which is not like me, at all. I'm just so tired of hearing all the negativity! I try my best to stay positive. I know on the outside everyone sees me as the happy go lucky kinda girl, but that's only a front. Most days it takes all my courage just to get out of bed in the mornings. But, I try to help others get into a happy mood. You cannot light another's path without brightening your own. A quote I heard once. It is very true. I put on the front of being happy so that way I will learn from my own lies and actually BE happy. Not during Christmas. It seems like everyone has something to complain about, and no matter how I try to make them see around the problem, it always fails. They just want to be miserable. So fine, be miserable. I am done trying to brighten other's lives, I will just sit in my corner quietly. It's just been one of those days/weeks/months/years.
So. Another blog I read was talking (typing) about doing random acts of kindness. More or less perpetuating the pay it forward idea. You know, where you pay for the guy behind you, he pays for the guys behind him, they pay for the lady behind them, etc etc. So anyways, I think I am going to start doing this more often. Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of times when I am "kind", such as holding a door when someone is walking behind me, or helping a mother who has her hands full when her little one drops her toy, stuff like that. But in those situations, it's either be kind, or be an ass. I don't have to hold the door, I could let it slam in that persons face. Or I could just stare at the toy on the floor, and the mother would probably hate me. But I want to do real acts of kindness. Such as, paying for someone's coffee. I don't have to, if I don't, I won't be a dillhole. After all, that person was intending on paying for their own coffee themselves. Or going out of my way to help an elderly person with putting groceries in their car. There is just not enough kindness in the world today. All we see is violence and mayhem. Hopefully, if I start going out of my way to be kind to people, other people will fall in step. One person at a time, we can all make this a better place to live, for us all. So I advise everyone to start "paying it forward" and being kind. If you like, feel free to leave your experiences in the comments below!