Yeah..I don't have it. So...as the MINI event is getting closer, I have been neglecting some key things to do. Like paint my derby car. So I have taken on that task the past few days. Well, the spray paint I had used ran a little bit, so I got an exacto blade to pry it off, sand it down, do another coat and good to go, right? Wrong. So here I am with the car in my left hand, blade in my right, scraping towards myself, and I thought "Gee, I remember my mom and other authority figures telling me never to peel towards myself when peeling vegetables. Ha. I never cut myself with a peeler". Why did I think that an exacto knife was SAFER than a vegetable peeler? I have no freakin clue! But guess what! I cut myself. I sliced the tip of my finger pretty good, and I am quite certain that I cut through a nerve ending or two. Because this crap hurts. It hurts to do anything! It hurts to unlock my car, it hurts to pick up a bowl, everything! Oh, I forgot to mention, it's on my thumb. Not my right thumb, thankfully, but my left. You never realize how much you use your "off" thumb (left for righties, right for lefties). I figured hey, not too bad, I don't use my left thumb that much. Yeah....I was wrong about that too! See my common sense showing through? Sigh. So now starts the road to recovery and scar prevention.

My hunny has left. He's off to play in the giant sandbox in the Middle East. I am a little bit sad. But I know things will turn out just fine =o). I have faith in us; we have a very strong relationship. A little bit of ocean won't tear it apart!
    I also have to give props again to the MINI people! Seriously, everyone should go out and buy a MINI just for the friends, it's great. They keep me busy, motivated, laughing, etc. Exactly what I need right now. Plus it keeps Craig on my mind (in a good way) too. I'm not sitting at home thinking about how lonely it is, instead I'm out driving about thinking about 'Craig would love this road, I'll have to show it to him when he gets back!' and so on. Chucky (the MINI) and I will be undertaking many more adventures here soon. I plan on heading out at least to NC, but probably making some trips as well to GA and to FL. And also out west! To CA and AZ as well. What fun! Happy motoring!
    One thing I don't understand for the life of me, though, is where did all these people come from? When Craig left, I had people coming out of the woodwork telling me that they're here for me, let them know if I need anything, calling to make sure I'm ok, etc etc. Yet, after the adoption, over half of these people were nowhere to be found. What's funny, is my current situation is not nearly as life-threatening as my previous one. Makes the support group kind of backwards, doesn't it? I keep saying in my head that it's probably just because of awkwardness. People don't know how to deal with adoption, it's not a topic that is discussed often, and so they don't know how to make me feel better, so they just don't do anything. While, yes, that may be true for some people, I know that's not the case for all. I'm pretty sure it's because they didn't agree with our decision. But you know what? I can't worry about those people. I will just tell them thanks, and know that I have learned I can't actually count on them. Sucks it has to be that way, but what can I do? Walk through with grace and style, and that's it.

So...when Craig left, I vowed to actually clean the apartment, get things done around here (like Christmas decorating!) etc etc. However, nothing has been done! I decorated for Christmas, and I managed to get all my cards done, but laundry/dishes/housework is just piling up. I don't even game online as much as I used to! Where did all my time go? And to top it off, I haven't paid it forward yet. Sigh. I have, however, gotten out of the house, which has done wonders for my mood and morale. Mostly out with the MINI group (lots of fun, woot woot!), but also out with family. I just can't seem to get the motivation up to actually get off my butt and do something productive. Ugh! When did all my plans fly out the window?!? Guess I know what I'll be doing tomorrow!

So...I know I've been slacking on the blog posts! Sorry! I was trying to get in all the time I had left with my Craig. He left this past sunday =o( BOOOOO. I misses him already. But for right now we're still talking a lot and such as he is only in AZ. Which is cool. We also joined a MINI club here in the DFW area. I have made some new friends already =oD. Went out tonight with them actually, had lots o fun. I was unsure if I was going to go or not, but I figured I should do what I can to get out of the house and I am super glad I did. I had a blast. Although it was a little unnerving driving Chucky (our MINI) in such traffic for the first time in a while, but I did swell. I figured I shouldn't worry as much as I do about it, because then I'll get all cramped up and it's just not pretty. So that's my blog-motto for the day! Don't sweat it. You'll cramp up!